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Archive for November, 2013

New Site

28 Nov

I have moved my site to my own server and so whilst you shouldn’t notice any difference, the subscribers that followed and were automatically emailed haven’t been moved over. If you wish to re-follow, just put your email address in the right hand side and you will be notified every time I post.

Sorry for any problems caused on this one!

 
 

What are the most common symptoms of PTSD?

20 Nov

A couple of weeks ago, I put a post up asking for people to fill in a questionnaire for me (seen here). I’m not sure if anyone would be interested but this is the responses from 65 people on their most common symptoms – remember you are not alone in this!

PTSD symptoms

 
 

Therapy Options

20 Nov

My cc has been round today and after meeting the head of psychology, two options have been suggested:

Option 1: one to one art psychotherapy for approx. 6 months and then straight in to a democratic therapeutic community (DTC) with a commitment period of 1day a week for 1 year and then less often for another year.

Option 2: DBT (dialectical behaviour therapy) which is 1 one to one session per week, 1 group session of 2 1/2 hours and telephone support.

To be honest, I didn’t like the fact I was being offered therapy for what seemed like bpd when I’ve made it more than clear in this blog that I don’t agree with that diagnosis.

However, my cc said there are two parts to my issues; one being the PTSD and trauma and the other being social problems (i.e. being isolated, anxious and depressed). The thought process of the psychology department is that these two options deal with both parts. Option one is one after the other and option two is at the same time.

I really had no clue which one to chose but purely through the process of elimination, I have chosen option 2. This is because I really dislike the sound of dtc and I don’t think it’s for me at all. Option 2 is also shorter and I hope I’ll be out of services not long after completion.

I should be feeling happy and glad that something is finally happening and yet I can’t help but still have this bone of contention over my diagnosis and to be honest, i’m feeling very scared of finally looking my traumas in the face and trying to overcome them!

 
 

If you…

12 Nov

If you….

If you had to go back to the worst moment of your life, everyday, as if you were reliving it

If you had to stay indoors because you were too scared of seeing faces in the crowd – even if they aren’t there

If you had to endure sleepless nights where the worst of your thoughts come out to play

If you hated yourself so much that you didn’t understand how you could breathe the same air as others

If you lost time, didn’t know what happened but always came back hurt

If you sometimes couldn’t even get out of bed for fear of what you would do to yourself, never mind the fact your brain won’t allow you to

If you had to put up with this day in, day out, would you still be alive?

 
 

Can you help?

07 Nov

I ususally use my blog to talk about my journey with PTSD and through it I hope I can provide help and support to those that need it. In this post, I am asking for your help.

Back in June, I put together a questionnaire as I thought I would write a pamphlet about PTSD, I soon realised this information was valuable and decided I wanted to try and write a book to help others. I would like to explain further about what I want to do with your help and this is an introduction to try and explain:

So why this book?

Well, during my time, I have found the most useful strategies have come from people who have lived with this illness and I wanted to pull all of these techniques together to help anyone else unfortunate enough to get this diagnosis. I want to set it out in an easy to use way as I know when I was at my worst, it was incredibly difficult to read a chunk of text. It will be put together in symptom order so you can just pick out the tools you need, as you need them, as well as read from front to back if you wish to do so.

However, I also want to address what this book won’t be. I am not qualified and this should not replace professional help. These are purely tools and techniques to help with the symptoms, not an answer to getting rid of them.

When I was first diagnosed with PTSD, I had absolutely no idea where to turn. I had gone to my GP after a period of feeling extremely low and to be honest was expecting to be told I was suffering from depression. However, after a few visits, PTSD was mentioned and after filling in a number of questionnaires, this was eventually given as a diagnosis.

Like I said, I had no clue what PTSD was and in a 10 minute doctor’s appointment, there was not enough time for it to be explained and so I turned to the internet. The main body of information was for war veterans and most forums and other online places were aimed at this. I really struggled to find information about PTSD for my reason (rape).

A lot of the symptoms were the same but all examples of how to deal with them were military based and I really struggled to know what to do with my own problems. And so I set up a blog and a twitter account with the intention of being able to connect with other similar individuals. This was by far the best thing I had ever done. I met some extremely courageous people and they opened my eyes to the possibility of living with this disorder and how to deal with the intrusive thoughts and anxiety that had filled my life.

I am now quite happy with my coping strategies and in the main, my ability to cope with flashbacks, which is my biggest issue and also the other symptoms.

I would love to put my experience to good use and if you would like to help and share your own tools and techniques (no matter how small you think they are), then please go to  https://www.surveymonkey.com/s/ptsdinfo and fill in the relevant bits.

If you have any questions, please feel free to contact me by either commenting on this post or contacting me here