Archive for March, 2014

What’s New?

09 Mar

I have struggled to write on my blog for a while now. Writing has always been a coping strategy for me and at a time when I’ve needed it, I’ve been unable to use it. So I am just going to attempt a quick update to try to get me back in the flow.

I have been continuing with graded exposure with my care co-ordinator and we have gone a bit further with our walk in the park so this side of things seems to be going well.

Because I am going to be away at the entry point for dbt, I have to wait until June – this means the pre-therapy sessions are every fortnight to space them out. I didn’t expect us to be doing anything in these sessions, I thought it was to see if dbt was a fit for both me and the group. But last time we worked on my last suicide attempt and the thoughts and feelings around it. This was a tough session and think it affected me more than I would like to admit.

I’ve been very quiet lately, I’m very aware of it. I haven’t been on twitter much and haven’t been speaking to friends, I know I  need to rectify this but I just can’t be bothered right now.

Tomorrow sees another pre-therapy session and we are going to discuss my concerns around the therapy and so I plan to print off my last blog post and go through this and the replies as well. I can’t go in to this thinking it will fail or it will and I can’t afford for that to happen.

Sorry this post is all over the place, I’ve really lost my writing mojo 🙁